Celesta Barbara Brinkerhoff!

I am so glad Celesta and I have become such close friends! We are two peas in a pod. It's been really nice having her friendship because both of us broke up with our boyfriends within a few weeks of each other and have been able to help each other out a lot. Seriously without being able to talk to Celesta, the break up would have been way harder for me!

It makes me sad though that I've known Celesta since March of 2006 and we've just barely gotten to be such good friends! Haha. But I'm glad for the friendship that we do have!

Here are some great moments/facts (whether they have been funny or serious or just mentionable):

A few weeks ago I went over to her house and we watched Nacho Libre and ate pizza. We somehow ended up babysitting 8 or 9 kids (3 of which were her siblings). Long story short, one of the girls was standing at the top of the slide, fell off, and broke her arm. Celesta had to go to work so I sat with the girl til Sis. B-hoff got home. Luckily Celesta was able to make it to work and the girl was okay!

The time at Erik's New Years party when we decided to cover our teeth in yucky black frosting.

Convincing Natalie from OSP that Celesta got married when she was 18 and has since been divorced (she really believes it!!!!). Convincing Matt that both of us are pregnant (not sure if he believes it anymore...though he did!).

Celesta is my mother. We are both pregnant with little boys, and both of us are due on the 26th...That's Thursday!!!! Our little boys are going to be BFF.

Fake-fighting in the kitchen at work.
Me: "Celesta! Get yourself under control!!!"
Celesta: "You know what!?!?!?"
After this Natasha looked up with a scared face...hahah she thought we were really fighting. Huh-larious.

And one final thing which I believe is the most recent:
One night last week at work, Celesta, Matt, Garrett, Jorge and I all left at the same time. Celesta and I were at the other end of the parking lot from the boys. We kept looking at them and they kept looking at us (I don't know why we weren't all just in one group). So Celesta and I decided to sneak over to her car and put it in neutral. She ducked down and steered it towards the boys while I pushed it. All of a sudden Jorge looked up and saw the car silently rolling towards his car. He did a double-take and realized all of a sudden the car was silently rolling towards them! Hahahah it was sooo funny. Celesta and I both almost peed our pants laughing so hard, and we both got a great ab workout from laughing like maniacs.

Here are some pics of us from the Ghost town! (I should write about our trip to the ghost town...but you can just look at my pics on facebook if you care to know and were not part of the group!)


Us and our baby bumps.

I am so glad we are friends! :D

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Bored and Lots to Do

Sooo it is one o'clock in the morning and I have a test I should be studying for....it's over 5 chapters of which I have read a grand total of, you guessed it, one. Hmm oh well.

So here I am deciding to BLOG instead.....ahhhh.

I have this really weird hobby, I love making lists. My lists are usually either of my friends (best friends or all of my friends haha) or names that I like. And right now I am thinking about names I like and so I'll share them with you!

Girls:

Emery

Ruby

Jayne

Daphne

Azure

Emalia

Brennan

Ivy

Jaidon

Kandria

Marren

Amelie

Boys:

Ezra

Teegan

Silas

Stetson

Kale

Jonah

Emmett

Joel

Heath

James

Luke

Max

My dog Scruffy is the best dog ever. He is so adorable and cute!! He's so funny to watch and he is so so smart. He knows lots of people's names (LISA! Momma, Dad, Travis, Stephen, Grandma, Aunt Donna, Aunt Treat [Aunt Jeannie...she always brings him treats], Lacey, and Chica [his doggy cousin]). Here are some of the other words and phrases he knows.

Treat

Dinner

Chicken

Walk

Bath

Go for a ride

Outside

Inside

Let's go

Show me

Scoot scoot (he moves out of your way)

Cat

(Go to) Bed

Sing with me now! (when we say this he starts howling)

Sit

Shake

Down

Stay

Kiss

Is (insert name) home??

Where's (insert name)?? (he'll often go find them)

No begging

Thos are all the ones I can think of off of my head. He's really funny.

Today in math we had a test....it basically turned into a take-home test. Since it's math for elementary teachers it's pretty easy. This test was basically making a bunch of different graphs with data. My friends Holly, Brittain, and I left class and went to the computer lab to make our graphs there (we were allowed to "collaborate" aka share the work). So Holly and Brittain made graphs in Excel and I made the other graphs that aren't in Excel in Paint. Haha. We literally finished right on time. And then we decided that together, we are a superhero. So yes, we are each a third of a superhero. Hahahahahah oh man that made me laugh.

And here is a garbage can outside my Spanish room.


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Odds and Ends

Thanks everyone for the comments you left on my last post again haha. I'm doing better. It's still pretty hard but it'll be okay...I have more to blog about on this subject but don't really feel like writing it right now.

So I am sort of a blog stalker as Linda calls it, and sometimes I read Stephen's cousins' blogs because they're entertaining and I like knowing about people haha. But like last week or something I randomly looked at his cousin Kelsie's blog and she had this link posted to a video on youtube and I watched it. It's so cry-ish!!! I don't feel that way YET hahahha but you should watch it, it's got a really good point. (Linda and Rhonda you might have already seen it!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqfGqOx2iDQ

And another random thing. The other day at work was TERRIBLE (aka all three Measons were working and being butts...especially Alexis.) And I was thinking about blogging about it. Then I was like "no I don't want to sound all whiney and stupid...maybe I'll do a good: blahblahblah. bad: blahblahblah. good bad etc" post about it. So yeah I was going to but then I waited too long and I don't want to anymore. But I do want to write a few hilarious/good things I was going to mention.

1. I was cleaning rollout (for those of you non-OSP peeps it's the room where we make the pizza dough...when you clean that room you're in there by yourself...one end connects to the kitchen, the other is right next to the dish room.) So I was mopping and I had been talking to Ryan Jean then he went back into dish. I was kind of irritated because of what I mentioned above. The only noise was the dish machine. The dish boys were quiet and I couldn't hear into the kitchen. Then all of a sudden from the door I hear Ryan: "Michael...are you gay!?" HAHAHAHAH okay it's not that funny when I write it but man was I cracking up haha. It was soooo funny.....it made my night.

2. The other funny thing that made me smile that night.....Chris (our manager) was doing some sort of inventory thing or something. He was carrying a scale and a clipboard with him. Actually the funny thing is he wasn't carrying them, he was pushing them all around the back of the restaurant on a bus cart!!! Hahahahah seriously!! Pushing this big old thing around for stuff that weighs a total of maybe 2-3 pounds. I was laughing at him. Then he realized how funny it was and laughed too. And kept doing it haha.

I went to do my service-learning at my mom's school this morning and on the way out there the sunrise was so pretty I took a few pictures. Here they are:

Not doing so well...

Thanks to everyone who commented on my last post, I appreciate your support and love. I'd comment you all back individually but I'm too lazy/tired. And yes Lauren I will try to call you soon :]

So Stephen and I broke up. It was okay, it ended up being mutual. But it sucks. I can't even describe how much it sucks. I hardly missed him when we were dating and went for days without seeing each other. But now I miss him like crazy, despite the fact that I've seen him at least once every day since we broke up. I don't get it. I've cried every day. I've talked to him about it. He said it's hard for him too. I told him that I guess the hardest part for me is realizing and accepting the fact that all we are is friends now....and he said that's hard too. He's cried. I told him that I felt stupid because it seems like he's already over me and I don't know why it's not so easy for me, and he told me, "No...trust me I'm not...I'm just trying to deal with it." I'm glad/sad for him. But I can't deal with it. Blaahhh this just sucks...I don't know what to do about it. I know I should pray because...okay this is the most ridiculous logic in the world I know...but I don't want to pray about it because then I might start feeling better, and if I start feeling better that means I'm getting over Stephen. And I don't want to be over him.

He was here for like 7 hours today, 4-11....He came over to watch the Super Bowl and have dinner with my family (ps I've never been into football but I was SO mad we lost!!!...). And while he was here things were perfectly fine. I wasn't sad, we goofed around, it was like the good times we had while we were dating. Actually, it was like we were dating again, minus the kisses. But within ten minutes after he left I just felt so depressed. This is terrible, even if I seem happy, if I'm not with him I'm really really sad. I don't get this

A moment

This whole Stephen deal has been going on for a long time. It started out with me denying any sort of feeling I was having that we're not right for each other. Then I stopped denying it but tried ignoring it, or not letting myself recognize it. Then I let it sink it. After that I kept getting so irritated with him and I'd just want to do it and get if over with. But whenever those thoughts and feelings came into my head I would combat it with feelings of "he's my best friend I can't" or "no I would miss him to much" or "we've been dating so long can I really do it?" or "I just don't feel up to destroying someone's life" (believe me, I think this is unfortunately how he will perceive it :[ ). But now I've finally reached the point that I don't exactly want to do it anymore but I know it's what I need to do and I am finally ready to trust my Savior. I know, I should have been able to do that a long time ago. But it's so hard to trust someone with somebody else who is important to you. I've always known that everything is okay with the Savior, I guess I just haven't experienced it so strongly yet. I am not looking forward to doing this at all. But I am trusting my Savior that He will take care of not only me but Stephen too. :[

Stephen and I are talking on Friday.
Thanks to all of you, soo so much, who have been helping me through this. I'm so grateful for all of you!

I have more interesting (to me) things to blog about but I have to get ready for work.

My Children's Storybook

Alrighty this blog is my children's story book because there will be more pictures than words.

Here are pictures from our girls/pajama/Mamma Mia night at Kaela's last week. For more pictures check out my facebook.

Celesta and her love.



Apparently he is Brianna's love too.



But, most importantly, he is my twin.

And here is the woman of the hour, lovely hostess/pregnant crazy lady, Kaela Beach.

Anamin and Celesta doing a duet.

Brianna and I being....yeah.

And all of us. A comment from Travis Birch about this picture: "For some reason this picture makes me want to laugh." (not exact words)

And here are some pictures from Brianna's birthday party at Native New Yorker Saturday night. (Yeah of course we didn't bust out the camera's until the birthday girl left.)

Clever Trever and Chancho (yes Anamin I know Chancho means pig. He told me to call him that because it would be funny....and I told Tito...and Tito told me that is what wives call their husbands....???!!!?!?!?)

Cholestra and Clever Trevor. This picture was accurately described by Jennifer Hale as those old happy/sad masks.

This is Jorge, a picture I stold from Tito.

Here is Anamin sitting on Pancho's lap. Travis and Brianna B. (Okay she's not really on his lap it just looks like it)

Clever Trevor, Chael, and Jennifer. (For those of you who don't know these people, Chael is really Mike but since everyone calls him by the first part of his name, I call him by the last part.)

And here are Pancho, I, and Tito. I taught Pancho and Tito what "creeper" means, and Tito is clearly demonstrating his new vocabulary.

This is another picture I stole from Tito but I had to post it because I love how hilariously stupid my face looks. hahahaha

Alright for those of you who read my blog who don't work at OSP, right now we have a bunch of foreign exchange students working with us right now. They're from Brazil and Chile. Pancho and Tito are from Chile. And we always speak in Spanish together!!! Mostly Tito and I. I speak in Spanish and he speaks in English. It is great for improvement! I will be so sad when they go home!!!! All of the exchange students are AWESOME!!!!! (Especially Tito and Pancho, and Andrews who is from Brazil.)

In other news concerning things that might interest you: No progress in the Stephen situation. Well there has actually been a lot of mental progress for me so I think I am getting closer to actually doing it. Not talking about it right now. No progress in the ASU vs BYU decision. My friend Ben who goes to ASU HATES it and that's saying something, trust me. No progress in the teaching major decision, I just really don't care anymore.

Other important news: I have rekindled my love for Muse. Well it never died. But I downloaded tons more of their songs. I love them and they make me want to float away ahhhh........

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Life and Its Lifeyness :[

What is up with me not being able to make up my mind!?!?!?! I seriously wish I could just get through this part of my life!! Haha....I know that's terrible to say. But I just have no clue how ANYTHING is going to turn out.....

1. The Stephen thing. We are back to being "good" and I just don't know what to do. It's the same thing over and over...I feel that we need a break. I want a break. Then I don't want a break. I'm furious and then I completely swoon over him. What is this??? He is so awesome and I love him so much I just don't think it's marriage love. Yet I want it to be while simultaneously being glad that it's not. Agghh.

2. I don't want to be a teacher anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what the heck I want to do but I'll probably end up sticking with elementary ed since I'm almost half way through with college (weird)....I mean it's great, and I've had a blast going into Mrs. Garcia's class at my mom's school to help every Friday. But I do NOT want to do that all day every day!!!! I really want to do something with art. I know everyone says "Do what you love" or whatever but I have to be practical...being an "artist" in a stable economy is tough. Being an "artist" in an undependable and possibly failing economy is next to impossible if you want to survive. So yeah. There will likely always be a demand for teachers. I really really hope that after I work a few years, I will be able to quit and rely on the income of my husband. Everyone's perfect dream but I know now that I've said it out loud (or written it publicly) something bad or "inconvenient" will happen and I'll end up having to work for many many years.

3. I do NOT want to go to ASU. All of my life I have passionately hated ASU. It just feels so devilish. I know not all of it is bad (heck the Guthries are there!! There is SOME good in it!) but come on, one of the top party schools in the nation, a devil for the mascot, colors that remind me of hell, beer, beer, beer, and nakedness...not my thing. Plus the tuition cost. I cannot afford it and I don't want my parents to pay for that huge sum of money (BYU is WAAYY cheaper). We rode the new lightrail the other day as a family and it went through the ASU campus. When I looked at the buildings I literally felt sick and wanted to throw up thinking about that I'm planning to transfer there. And staying at a community college is out of the question. I want to go back to BYU. I just don't know if I can do it. Can I really leave my family again? And now that I've gotten really close to all my buddies at work can I leave them???? And can I leave Stephen?? Whether we are together or not? He's still my best friend. I just do not know what I am going to do.

This is definitely one of those times in life where I wish the answer would just be handed to me. The right answer that is the absolute best for me and for those I love. When I have to rely on myself to make big decisions like all of these I get the mental image of myself curled up into a ball crouched in a dark corner peaking through my fingers and probably crying. It's a good thing I have my Savior to help me. I have learned a LOT about him over the past month or two and the things I have come to realize are absolutely amazing. There is so much to Christ and His Atonement I can't even comprehend it. Jesus is my best friend and I don't know how to put into words how I feel about Him. Anyways I just hope I can rely on Him enough to help me make the decisions that I need to make and make them in ways that are in line with Heavenly Father's will. This is scary stuff for me :[ :[ :[ blaaahhhhhhhh